Thursday, February 25, 2010

un-inspirational....

i spent all day looking for jobs, applying for jobs, updating resumes, writing cover letters....blah blah blah. obviously this is necessary. doesn't mean i have to like it! and here's an FYI - there aren't a lot of fashion design jobs in Oklahoma City! shocked? fortunately, i have an 'in' (thank you TT!) for a great design job here, and i'm just hoping it pans out soon. not necessarily because i'm thrilled about the idea of going back to work full-time...but because uncertainty is so very stressful.

honestly, i wish i could just create things i love and sell them to pay the bills, but i don't know how realistic that is. it's weird - when i was told the company i worked for was closing down, i was kind of excited about the idea of being a 'starving artist' and struggling a bit, living off my art. but now that bills are due? i'm ready to sell-out and get a fat(ish) paycheck again. or ya know...win the lottery! or marry rich. but i think part of the definition of "trophy wife" is skinny and fit, yes? need to work on that!

side note: i'm watching CSI right now, which i don't usually do. why do they find it necessary to have nearly every scene in the dark? it's the middle of the day in the CSI office and they can't even see a photo. and there are no lights in an interrogation room? come on.

well, i suppose this is enough rambling for today. back to sewing tomorrow!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

inspiration....

my mom called me this morning and read me part of the editor's letter from an art magazine she gets. it was pretty powerful...i'll paraphrase:
the editor quotes van Goethe, "Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it."
then she says, "Let no fear or doubt creep in - take charge of your dreams and ideas and make magic!"

so...i'm trying to make some magic today, in the form of sleep masks/eye shades. not as easy as i thought - the binding around the edges is annoying and time consuming. unfortunately i am just really out of practice with my sewing skills! but, i'm getting back on track. these aren't amazing, but here's a pic (leopard print cotton flannel, and hand-dyed silk):




don't look too closely at stitching lines! ;)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

here goes....

well it's been three days since i set up this dazzling blog. i must say, it is a lot harder than i thought! to get over the "who the hell wants to read what i have to say" voice in my head has been tough. but if you have read the "about me" section over to the right, you'll find i DID indeed get over it! has there ever been more said in a profile? and that's the condensed version! i had to keep it under 1200 characters. whew!

so, today i got my first dispersement of Unemployment funds. man, is that a humbling experience. two weeks ago i was making a really decent salary as a designer and not too concerned about the "what if's". now i'm hoping i don't get evicted because i haven't paid rent! (well, that's not really my biggest concern...i rent my house from my big brother and Mom would be pretty P.O.'d if he kicked me out!) still, not an ideal situation. let me explain the unemployment issue: for the past 18 months i've worked for a home accessories manufacturer, spending my days designing bedding, toss pillows, and Christmas stockings. 2 weeks ago they went out of business. this bad economy stuff is REAL, people!

so the bottom line is...i need to get on the ball! the point of this blog is to document the MANY MANY MANY projects i have talked about starting for much too long. it's sad that someone who describes herself as an artist hasn't actually created anything (other than mass-produced nonsense) in over a year. ugh, laziness is miserable. but in my defense, using all your creative energy working for someone else isn't easy either.

so, this is me. this is my first real blog post. tomorrow i spend the day in my office/studio/sewing room and make some stuff! i'll write more about my progress!

p.s. rent is coming big bro, i promise! :)

Sunday, February 21, 2010

and so it begins....

well, i set up the blog. seems like enough for tonight. need much more thought before i actually start writing!